Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Small things

Yeah, I know, no weight loss updates.  They shall be resumed after my semester ends.

Just a short and rather petty update to make fun of a former dick of a boss.  This jerk told me that a document that I produced for internal use had "some major problems."  I almost had to browbeat him to get him to sit down with me and go over said problems ('cause you know, I wanted to do my job well).

Turns out a couple minor grammatical errors and some apparently inappropriately strong phrasing (for the uses to which my employer would put it) just cripple an approximately 1000 word document.  I still think it must have contained some useful information because as far as I can recall, he only had one disagreement with me on the facts presented (which he had to verify by checking with the flake of a specialist at that place, who didn't seem to know much about the area I was writing on anyway).  And even on that point, I seem to recall going with my original interpretation.  You see, I did the fucking research.  I actually used that degree they counted in my favor when considering hiring me. A degree that was directly applicable to the subject matter at hand, unlike Bossman's (but it was okay, because once you're a manager you don't actually need to have a broad, deep understanding of what you're working with; that's what your robots employees are for).  Since overwhelming evidence suggests his management style consisted of criticizing and demoralizing his staff, I'm guessing Bossman would have told me if he thought it was fundamentally incorrect.

Some things to keep in mind here:

1.  It was for internal use.  This was not being released to the public.*  It was, in fact, under review.  It's my understanding that this is the stage of the publication process where the boss (or a proxy) looks at the work to check its accuracy, appropriateness, etc.  Provide some useful critique to assist your employees in doing better work, possibly.  Kind of like the editorial process at a publishing house.  Bossman obviously didn't think so, seeing as how terrible it apparently was and how I had to push to get some feedback.  Perhaps he's of the school that if you can't do it perfectly, you shouldn't do it at all.  If everybody in that field adopted that position, almost nothing would get done.  Flaws everywhere.  Why not deal with them constructively?  At any rate, there was no immediate danger of the organization looking bad because I had a subject/verb disagreement or wrote with too much candor.

2a.  It was something that I researched and wrote on my own steam, because he gave me very few  no assignments beyond being a warm body at a desk to talk to the rather low number of users we received.  I thought it would be more professional to use and improve my skills by creating a useful document for the staff than it would be to sit around reading Star Trek novels all day.**  Also, it's not like I sprang this on the staff, my day-to-day boss had helped me develop the project.  It was this incident that really solidified my decision (some time in coming) to save up all the steam I didn't need for providing good customer service for a new field of endeavor.  Good customer service didn't take a lot of steam.  I still did research to assure good customer service and for my own edification, but I didn't try to rustle up any more projects for myself.  He obviously didn't want a go-getter.

2b.  He couldn't even be bothered to say something positive about me trying to create something good that would help staff and (ultimately) users/caring about the place/showing some initiative/bothering to really gain an understanding of the relevant issues (something I didn't get the impression most of my predecessors had done)/trying to become a better professional.  I'm not sure why they didn't just buy a scarecrow and stick a motion-activated recording of relevant information in its head.  That's basically what he wanted, and it would have been a lot cheaper for him.

3.  The field that I was working in created publications for users that, for best consumption, needed to be written according to certain guidelines.  I did my best (which wasn't good enough, obviously), but I had never received any formal training in writing in that style.  I'd barely received any formal training at all since joining that company.  Seeing as he was unhappy not only with my work, but with the work of permanent, more senior employees in my division, you'd think he might have organized a few on-site training sessions (he could have headed them, since he knew it all), or sent us away to training somewhere else, or given out some assigned reading on writing to those specs and then had us write samples for him to critique, or really just done anything constructive.  Nah.  He just acted like minor errors in documents under review were the end of the fucking world, and we were all morons for failing to be perfect.  The only training I got at that site was how to use a fire extinguisher.***

4.  Some of the phrasing did need some work, but frankly it's a style thing that it takes most people years of practicing to do really well - that's why the person with the greatest expertise reviews materials and (ideally) offers a constructive critique.  Constructive being the operative word in that sentence.  I also basically missed the deadline for making the work valuable for that year (although the information could be reused annually).  This would have been another valid critique, but it never even came up.  Instead I got a nice heaping of opprobrium for a few technical errors and for being inexperienced).

Other incidents showed his interpersonal/managerial skills to be rather lacking as well.  This was not a one-off thing.  I'm inclined to think all those books on managing people he had in his office were rather a waste of money.


The above is basically to explain why I found an Internet post by him that I came across so funny.  He posted on an organization-related website using his full name and providing his location.  In his fairly brief comment I counted four spelling errors and one grammatical error.  Oh dear.  That doesn't look too professional.  It's also interesting that in his post he mentions that colleagues should take care of each other.  I suppose "...in life-or-death situations, at any rate"  is probably implied.  He sure didn't do a very good job of taking care of his staff at that site.  When thinking about that staff, most of whom I liked, the words that spring to mind most readily are disillusioned, cynical, and dysfunctional.

Fucker.

I certainly can't think of anything he did during my time there as a young, inexperienced, temporary employee living hundreds of miles away from home that made me feel particularly welcome.  Another employee (or possibly said employee's wife) mentioned to their kids that they should invite me over for Thanksgiving dinner if they happened to see me (I lived all the way next door), which they did, so I was made to feel welcome there.  Nobody invited me to do anything for Christmas, aside from the staff Christmas party, which was off-site, and which another co-worker kindly drove me to.  There wasn't anything to do in the little town we were in, not really anywhere to go that I knew of, and I wasn't comfortable enough driving in winter conditions to just go for a pointless, aimless ride around the countryside.  Instead I spent those days getting drunk and eating frozen pizza in a dark, cold house situated between the houses of two coworkers and within a couple miles of most of the rest of them.  Ho ho ho.  One of my previous bosses (same organization) sounded kind of surprised when I told him, in response to his query on the subject, that no one had invited me to do anything for Christmas.  Supposedly the organization I was working for instills in its employees a sense of "family", but I don't think that's true now, if it ever was.  Good bosses can do that regardless of the organization, but crappy bosses who discourage their staff from working and striving to develop their professional potential, and who also often seem unable or unwilling to cut the slackers and the shirkers loose get nothing but the type of environment that I saw at that site, and that I've seen more and more at that organization's outposts, even since I've left the field.  Anecdotal evidence suggests that the levels of professionalism and dedication to that profession have declined over that past ten or twenty years.  That's what you get when you hire and promote bad people and discourage good people from staying, improving themselves, or doing anything other than gaming the system.



*Now, my day-to-day supervisor, who was a competent - if somewhat disillusioned and disgruntled - guy, thought what I did was okay and used it to create a document for users. The big boss had problems with that doc too, but at least I was off the hook for that once I told him that the public doc wasn't mine, it was his relatively long-serving, permanent employee's.  Not that that made my boss act like any less of a dick to me, though.


**  Which is what my predecessor did.  I consider that pretty unprofessional, given the nature of the field.  The big boss didn't have a problem with it, apparently, although my day-to-day boss did.  I only knew him for a few days, but he seemed to me to be a lazy individual who provided rather indifferent customer service and couldn't even be bothered to attempt to look professional.  Perhaps being a veteran makes up for choosing to not do your job.

***P-Pull (the pin)
     A-Aim (the nozzle at the base of the fire)
     S-Spray
     S-Sweep (the nozzle back and forth while spraying the base of the fire)

    See - this is an educational blog.




Like I said at the top of the post, this is really petty.  But he was such a dick, and it's pleasing to see him look like a bit of a dolt on a quasi-professional, publicly accessible blog.  And yeah, there are probably spelling and grammatical errors in my post, but hey - I'm publishing this anonymously, on a site with no connection to that field (or my current field, for that matter), and doing nothing other than venting some spleen.  I always try to make my professional work look good, which is what I think counts.  I may not always succeed, but I learn from my mistakes when they're pointed out to me.  I don't need to made to feel like an idiot for that to be accomplished.  At least now I have bosses who aren't complete jerks.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Weigh-in: Week 5

I gained 0.8 lb this week.  Less than I averaged over the past two weeks, but nothing to celebrate.  Oh well.  Time to buckle down.

Total pounds lost:  8

...........

On an unrelated note:

Recent conversation with my roommate upon returning from a department-sponsered lecture on a topic that relates to my major academic interests, as well as being relevant to a couple of the department's major strengths and life in the region (paraphrased):

Roommate:  How was the lecture?
AF:  It was interesting.
R:  Yeah, I thought about going, but I'm not really interested in [that topic].
AF:  Yeah.  I know you've told me before, but what are your academic interests?
R:  [Proceeds to list professional interests, followed by academic interests that this school has no real outstanding program in...or any real program in at all, for that matter].  I'm interested in everything, basically.

Er...except for at least one notable historical feature of life in the region, which affected millions of people and helped spur a national movement.  I guess that's not enough of a "something" to be part of "everything".  Dead monks' fingernails, however, are enough of a something to merit interest.

I get the sense that my roommate looks down on me because I'm organizing my academic career in a way that suits me (rather than the departments), and because I don't play along with her lame attempts at excusing her rude and stand-offish behavior using humor.  That's okay.  I don't like people who say they're interested in "everything", when their interests are actually quite limited, derivative, and are almost completely irrelevant to anything outside of academia and the Church.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Weigh-in: Week 4

I've gained 3 pounds over the last 2 weeks.  Not unexpected.  I will get back on track and lose that weight this week.

In other news, I bought a book on dealing with anger.  Hopefully this will help me out a bit.

Total lbs. lost:  8.8

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

LOL

Just found out that the mother of one of the most obnoxious, immature, moronic, slutty, junior-alcoholic-of-the-year contenders I've ever had the displeasure of having to deal with is a "Christian educator".  Oh, how I LOLed.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Things I Love

I overslept and missed both opportunities to attend WW on Saturday, which is why there's no weigh-in post.  I haven't done very well for the last week or so, but I'll get back on track.

I think a secondary purpose of this blog will be to bitch incoherently about stuff that I can't talk about other places.  The sheeplike religiosity of many of my current acquaintances, as well as many of the people in my lovely little state (and it really is; too bad there's so much poverty, ignorance, and flat-out craziness), for example.  Grad school hasn't begun kicking my ass yet, so here's some more grumbles while I have the time and mental stamina to write them down.

Things I Love Find Somewhat Irritating:

1.  People who give flippant or irrelevant responses to serious questions or statements.  My roommate does this.  She also:

2.  Leaves lights on when she's not using them.
3.  Leaves the sink full of dishes for hours, if not days.  I'm not talking about a plate or two and some silverware (I do that sometimes, but I try not to make it a habit, and I at least rinse stuff off if I know it's going to be sitting for a while).  I'm talking about baking sheets, breadmaker-innards, pots, bowls with ingredients of various types crusted inside them, etc.  She also leaves food sitting out for hours (if not days).  This would be nothing more than a minor annoyance, except that it attracts roaches.  YUCK.
4.  Rarely feels compelled to check the mail.  This, along with taking out the trash, seems to have become primarly a duty for AF to perform.  I don't know why.  It's not like the mailboxes are located right inside the primary entrance to the apartment building, or something ridiculously convenient like that.

Huh.  That was shorter than I thought it'd be.

Well, I feel better.  That's all for now.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Not for Facebook

One of my favorite timewasters is I Can Has Cheezburger and its sister sites.  I'm particularly fond of GraphJam.  And there are a reasonable number of graphs that I like.  Unfortunately, I can't post some of my favorites from this site on Facebook (a real tragedy, that).  Some of them it would just be weird to post, but several others would offend the delicate sensibilities of my many mindlessly conservative*, fundamentalist Christian** acquaintances. 

This is one of those:

Funny Graphs - Bonus Post: The Most Elusive Of Them All
see more Funny Graphs

*  I enjoy meeting and talking to well-informed, thoughtful conservatives with grounded, well-reasoned political and social philosophies.  That doesn't happen very often.  Most of the people I know who hold what they call conservative beliefs just accept at face value what their parents, preachers, or Fox News pundits of choice tell them they ought to believe, no matter how obviously nonsensical, undemocratic, anti-Constitutional, provably false, or potentially hurtful those beliefs (or their applications) might be to individuals or to society as a whole.

**  I think Christianity (along with every other religion) is pretty silly, but a lot of the Christians in my neck of the woods (especially evangelical Protestants) are possessed of an especially irritating combination of willful ignorance, religious arrogance, and hypocrisy.  I realize that there are other many places that suffer from excessive religiosity to a much greater degree than my little state, but quite a lot of the U.S. seems to do well without having to deal with this crap.  My short stint in what may be one of the most politically, religiously, and socially moderate and tolerant states in the Union was certainly a delight after dealing with the all the religious and political insanity of my home grounds.  Fortunately, despite the best efforts of some people, my state is much closer to being democracy rather than a theocracy.  No doubt they'd be better at being theocrats than they are at this whole democracy thing, but there are still enough gadflys with a working knowledge of the U.S. Constitution around to keep them from reaching their potential in that respect.

 People of this persuasion rarely seem to have respect for anyone else's beliefs.  In fact, it seems to me that almost any time groups of them attain power in a given situation, they end up engaging in religious bullying, by both marginalizing people whose beliefs differ from theirs, and by encouraging a particular religious culture in places where it's not necessary (and sometimes actually illegal) for conducting whatever business is at hand.  Matthew 6:6, babes.

Most of them also seem disinclined to apply basic logic to any of their beliefs, be they religious, poltical, or social.  As a result of this, in addition to doing their part to hold themselves and the state back, they also do things which seem, to me, to make something of a mockery of their religion.  For example, my high school marching band, composed predominantly of Protestants (with a large contingent of Baptists), was in the habit of using the Lord's Prayer as a pep chant before half-time performances.  Even the Jews participated in this - whether because they felt pressured to, or because most of them were irreligious smartasses who didn't care one way or the other, I couldn't say.  I always thought it was ridiculous, and stood on the fringe of the group with my mouth shut, but come on - you really think those are the words of Jesus of Nazareth, given to his disciples, and you think it's appropriate and respectful to use them as a pep chant for a silly high school activity?  Like I said, I always thought it was ridiculous, but I wouldn't have dared say anything.  They'd all have been sooo offended that I challenged their religious practices (which, incidentally, totally belonged on a public school football field.  We're all about inclusion down here).  I'd have been even less popular than I already was, and may well have lost some of my kinda-sorta-friends.  That's basically why I don't post this sort of stuff on Facebook.  I can't afford to burn my bridges.

This is not to say they're not nice enough on their own terms, or that they have no virtues, but you can't expect too much*** from them on a day-to-day basis.

And don't get me wrong, I've met Christians who don't have their heads so far up their asses they can watch their food digest, and I usually like them.  I still think their beliefs are silly, but their ability to think logically, independently, and deeply helps me find respect for them.  And if they can manage to at least tolerate people whose beliefs differ from theirs, all the better.

***Like valuing education, critical reading, or critical thinking.  Or dealing with difficult issues instead of retreating to unprovable (and therefore, they presume, unassailable) positions or some heavily romanticized past (we were a proud part of the CSA, but that's a topic for another time), or simply shutting down.  Or respecting and helping outsiders known to be different from them, except under duress.  Or not giving buckers-of-trends a hard time for not going along with their personal beliefs about how people should live their lives.  Just to name a few things.

I think the above-mentioned commonly held qualities are significant parts (although, to be fair, probably not the most significant parts) of why my state is usually at the back of the pack when it comes to indicators of quality of life.  But I digress.  Isn't that a funny Venn diagram?

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Weigh-in: Week 4

Down another 1.6 lbs.  That's more than I thought I'd lose this week.  I made a few poor food choices, and was really stressed out for most of the week, but managed to stay on-plan for the most part.  I need to do a better job of tracking my Points this week.  I just started my first "real" semester of grad school, so that should be something interested to add to the mix.  I hope I can keep my head above water.

Total pounds lost:  11.8